Thursday, February 20, 2014

Which Choice Would You Take?

You may be wondering why there has been nothing but radio silence from my end for the last few days. Well, here's my chance to tell my story.

Some of you who have followed me on Twitter would know that I was writing a story for a project that got me excited for a whole month. It was an exciting opportunity, and I tweeted about it actively while I was writing. When the opportunity came to publish, I was ready to take it seriously: lining up an editor, looking for cover illustrators, all that jazz.

Then the deadline came... and it came as a shock.

There was no way I could get my work done as perfectly as possible for that deadline. I already have enough deadlines as it is as a graduate student - why should I complicate it further by forcing myself to turn in rushed product as a writer? Don't get me wrong, I loved that story a lot and I worked with some amazing beta readers to help me polish it. But a polished product is a polished product, and I couldn't do it while working on my academic deadlines at the same time.

I won't deny that I was angry and sad for a long time, and I probably depressed the hell out of my friends while I vented and ranted about the unfairness of it all. Then one day, I woke up, and I realized that what I had in my hands was an answered prayer.

For the longest time - for as long as I've been writing - I've been driven by the need to have my work be validated and recognized by others. I'm not going to lie, it's a personality flaw, but it's a flaw that has fueled my career, and it has brought me to the point where I was able to get myself self-published. For that I will be grateful, and nothing will be able to take that away from me.

What I didn't do was stop and think.

People did look up to me as a published writer, but I was always at my laptop thinking more, more, more - more readers, more legitimacy, more recognition. My writing was my lifeline, after all, and yet I was honestly not as happy as a writer as I was when I was still writing. I wanted to be part of the table with the popular ones, yet at the same time I still didn't belong there because I didn't work hard enough.

In my own way, I became resentful.

So when the time came, and I had to choose, I ended up choosing my academics over my writing, even though I knew that it was going to be more stressful. Why? Because it was the only way for me to get out of my own way.

I'm not going to go all Frozen on all of you and sing let it go, let it go,because that would be a cliche. Nor will I tell you that this is my way of finding my genuine self, because this isn't the right time to be touchy-feely about that sort of thing. What I can say, however, was that I had a better offer for my time on the academic side - and that offer was something that couldn't be put off for too long.

As my friend Scribeymom recently said to me, deadlines are only for papers and journalists. And the academic paper that I had to write was an opportunity that may never come my way again.

Sometimes we have to accept that the right opportunity will come at the right time, on better terms and conditions. Sometimes we have to accept the fact that we have to choose the path that leads to the least amount of heartbreak, because we'll always get our hearts broken no matter where we go. This is not to say that we should give up what we love altogether; come to think about it, it should strengthen our resolve, give us the chance to pick up where we left off and start over again. But sometimes we have to admit that our fears come from wanting too much and not giving enough.

Sometimes all it takes is to get out of your own way.

Monday, February 3, 2014

Housekeeping

A few things have been going on chez Meimei:

1) I'm up to my ears right now with school work; 
2) I'm excited about the upcoming launch for Kids These Days (check out the artwork on Chrissie's blog); 
and 3) I'm writing a short story for a writing class that's quite far from the norm for me. Let's just say that the "opposites attract" trope is not as easy to write as I thought. 

But I'm happy. I'm glad that I have another book out (one that I'm proud to share with my parents, heehee). I'm glad that things are moving forward with my work. I'm glad that I've been reading a lot of books, even if they are more of the, er, escapist persuasion. 

I'm just... happy. :) 

Friday, January 17, 2014

#LunaEast Book Launch and #romanceclass Anniversary!


Has it really been a year since I first started drafting Save the Cake? One year later, we're celebrating the anniversary of the class that started it all - and the first volume of the anthology that has brought us together.

Join us on February 8, 2014, at the Ayala Museum to celebrate the first anniversary of #romanceclass and the simultaneous book launch for Luna East, Volume 1. Meet your favorite authors (including me!), check out our books, and relive the feels.

Interested? RSVP here - the link will take you to the Facebook event page. Come and show your support!

Thursday, January 16, 2014

#LunaEast Volume 1: Coming Soon!

Check out this description of the Luna East project from Mina's blog

What is Luna East, exactly?
A fictional Metro Manila high school that we’ve created as the setting for new YA fiction. Luna East is a co-ed non-sectarian private school, somewhere in the metro, a bit upscale but with a growing percentage of scholarship students. The school likes to focus on its arts education, but they have sports teams (Go, Wolves!), beauty pageants, and other things that private schools in the metro have. 
Excited already? Wait until you check out the roster for Volume 1:

  • Be Creative by Stella Torres
  • Senpai's #1 Fan by Anne Plaza
  • Love Lies A'Bleeding by Alyssa Ashley Lucas
  • Picture Me Naked by D. R. Lee
  • Something Real by Miles Tan
  • Wouldn't Change A Thing by Jayen San Diego
  • You Are the Apple of My Eye by Addie Lynn Co
  • The Letter by M. Protacio-De Guzman
  • Where Do We Go From Here by Jen C. Suguitan
  • The Rumor About Me by Kristel S. Villar
  • He Loves Me...Not? by Athena Claire Duenas
  • Sitting in a Tree by Chrissie Peria
  • Yours Is the First Face That I Saw by Ron Lim
  • Fifty-Two Weeks by Mina V. Esguerra  
This is a major deal for me because this will be the first time that my work will appear in print (don't worry, the print edition of Save the Cake will happen... soon), and it's also the first time that I've worked with my fellow #romanceclass authors on putting together an anthology. The best part of it all is that you can pre-order the paperback now, before it becomes available next month. 

To pre-order your books, fill out the form HERE- and don't forget to add my name to the form so they'll know who sent you! (Philippine orders only, unless you have friends or relatives in the country who can receive the books for you. Payment information to follow.)  

Saturday, January 4, 2014

Looking Forward



Normally I would have waited to post this until this blog's "birthday," but the end of this past year has brought me so many revelations that I could not help but post about them right now.

This year, I'm going to take a pass on making resolutions - not because I'm bad at making them (though I had a pretty good record for that in 2013) - in favor of creating a theme that I'm meant to follow for the rest of the year. Inspired by my friends Tina and Amy (who posted about her yearly "themes" on Facebook), I've resolved to sum up my hopes for the new year in only a few words, no more, no less.

My words for this year? Welcoming Forward. 



Monday, December 23, 2013

Happy Holidays



I was supposed to save this post for Christmas Day, but unfortunately we here at Hacienda de Meimei are dealing with an unexpected loss in the family, which (also unfortunately) would also prevent me from posting during the holidays. I also won't be in town for New Year's, since we'll be taking a long-awaited vacation outside of the country as well.

Until then, from all of us here at The Great Big Jump, we wish you a happy and healthy holiday season.

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR! 

Friday, December 20, 2013

Blog Tour Excerpt Reveal + Giveaway: THE REAL SCORE, by Kesh Tanglao

Welcome to the latest stopover from Book Junkie Blog Tours! Today we feature an excerpt from Kesh Tanglao's boy(band)-crazy debut, The Real Score. 




THE REAL SCORE
by Kesh Tanglao

Links: Goodreads | Smashwords | Amazon | Kobo | Paperback order (Philippines only)

About the Book: 


Caitlin's friendship with Marcus, the de facto frontman of the world's biggest boy band Gezellig, has long been an object of scrutiny by almost everyone--their friends and families, the media, and his fans--ever since they "went public" a couple of years back. Who wouldn't be interested? She was a nobody, catapulted into the limelight of his fame when he struck an unusual friendship with her.  
To both Caitlin and Marcus, what they have is a "perfect little thing." But then something comes along and threatens it. 

In a no-holds-barred interview, will they finally be forced to settle the score?

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EXCERPT: 


“So, I still haven’t given you my gift.”

I removed one of my sneakers—which are called trainers on his side of the planet—before looking up at Marcus. “You mean there is an actual gift? Flying here and the party isn’t the gift?” I said, aghast. “You are spoiling me far too much, Wayans.” 

He placed his hands in his pocket, looking at me sheepishly. “Well, I’ve got the money to spend, so…”

“Not an excuse,” I replied sharply. “Some of us have to work hard to get that kind of money.”

He winced. “I get it that you don’t like me spending my money on you, but you have to understand that this is why I work hard for it,” he said patiently. “To make the people I care about happy.”

I chucked my shoes and my socks to the corner where he was standing and he had to step out of the way, shaking his head. “So my gift,” he said, and I raised an eyebrow. We engaged in a stare-down, with me on the losing end.

“Okay,” I exhaled.

Marcus fished an envelope from the back pocket of his jeans, walking over to me. He handed it to me and then stepped back, as if readying himself for the wrath I’m about to unleash. I opened the envelope, and there were some papers inside, one with Marcus’ scrawl:

You always wanted to travel. You’re 25 now, almost free of your responsibilities from your family. Fly to London. Two weeks. On me.
I reached inside the envelope, and there was a voucher for a plane ticket inside with my name on it. I took a shaky breath before looking at him.

“Oh dear,” I said, and he gave me a nervous smile.


“I want to take you to my home.” 

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About the Author: 

Kesh Tanglao is a full-time market researcher. When she’s not crunching numbers, she spends most of her free time watching TV shows, listening to music, and reading. Also a self-proclaimed fangirl, she likes cheering for her favorite sports teams and supporting her favorite artists. The Real Score is her first published novella. 

You can follow Kesh on Twitter (@sparksfire_) and visit her official Facebook author's page. Check out the playlists for The Real Score (and other works-in-progress) at http://8tracks.com/sparksfire_. Her email address is kesh.tanglao@gmail.com

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Giveaway time! Win a fabulous swag bag from Kesh including a copy of the paperback edition for The Real Score, plus bookmarks, a charm bracelet, and a mini-care package from Marcus and Caitlin! 

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